sorry i need to rant...

yeah so..life's complicated. i know it's been said a million times but that's the only thing i can think of to describe my current situation. i get dumped by a guy that i care alot about for a girl that is an exact replica of me only she's 200 pounds heavier than me..no exaggeration. This girl and I went to high school together. When I had a particular outfit on no more than a week later she had the same outfit..if i dyed my hair same thing..if i so much as cut my hair same f****** thing. i have no clue why he would seeing that i don't park myself a mile up his ass, i don't try to control a damn thing he does. i let him have space to do his own thing. i try not to be too damn needy/clingy whichever word fits better there. i try to be the most laid-back person i can be without being absolutely ridiculous or without having people walk over me thinking i won't care. then i have friends that can't decide whether they hate each other, love each other and neither of the two of them cam decide which guy they want to be with. thinking that i'm probably going to offer them advice on both matters. i've stated clearly over and over again very clearly to both of them..i'm not going in between you guys and passing messages or anything of the sort on to you guys..if you have a problem with her take it up with her..the problem is none of my damn business,as far as the guy matter goes i have enough problems wrong in that department that i need to figure out myself i don't need 50 questions coming from you about what i think they did wrong in the last relationship or why guy #4 is being a douche bag. i have to take care of myself, my brother, my mom, my grandparents, and my great grand mother on top of all this s*** that i have to deal with personally i hardly have time to stop and think about my friends problems, let alone my own, i need a break before i actually breakdown. i love my friends i love my family and i care alot about this guy and i think they all know that i'd put myself through hell and back for all of them before i'd hurt them. but everyone has a breaking point..even me as laid-back and quiet as i am...i'm reaching mine as each day passes and a new set of life's problems gets thrown in my face.