Seventeen?

Today is my birthday..
my seventeen..
i had been dreaming for all my life,
wish i would have a sweet17.
Dreamed,,how wonderful it would be..
full of laughing,love,smile,happiness..

Still there are some pieces of those dreams in my head..
I cant lie,.
I really want it to be a special part of my life..
an unforgottable time that i can cherish all the things it brings..

but i doubt it for this time.
Now i know, sweet 17 is just a silly thing to be trust on.
How could i be such a fool,,
fool cause i expect so much in this superstition.
It's just the same as some fairy tales told to little girls who havent could understand that they are just told lotta lies by their parents.
It's just a massive fake story.

What should i trust on?
NOthing else.
I'm just a lonesome..a lonely girl in her 'SWEET SEVENTEEN' day.

it's alright.
the empty space in this soul is just getting wider...
i'm alone,,laying with the beautiful dreams inside which could be real for never.
i'm waiting for something which i never know what it is.

Love.
what is love?
it should be something that can make me happy in my happy day.
it should cheer me up when i need something that can push me to get out of the sadness.

but the fact isnt like that.
So,what else that i can do?
What else can help me,if the love i have can't give me what i need??
The love which people say can give a very big power to someone who belongs it just brings nothing to me in the day that supposed to be wonderful.

Damn.
I'm ending this.