I'll meet you eyes i mean this forever ... chap 1!

well.. first of all.. i have to state this...
this is a frerard... so ppl yes that means frankie/gerard l♥ve.. yep mcr ppl..
nd well i did it with all my respect for those guys ok?? so no rude comments.. if u dont like gay fics its ok... then dont read this..
sorry
ust needed to say that...

soo kk

(Gerard's POV)

Well… where should I start??... By introducing myself?? … naaaaaa I think you'll guess that at one point, so f*** it here it's my life: I've been living a lifestyle that in particular I sometimes like, I say sometimes cuz there's always days when I feel like I'm not me, I mean, I sometimes act like this is not my life… like I say or do something that doesn't go with me, like I'm acting like a bastard or just acting like an idiot about life. People are always expecting what I will do next or what will I say & let me tell you that I f****** hate that!! I f****** hate being observed by others!! Come on it's MY f****** life.. I can decide how to live it! Wait a minute… if I can decide …why then I just don't f****** do it? Probably cuz of the reject or all the b******* that may come after… Sometimes I wish I was like Frank… yeah… Frank has nothing to worry about, he acts like he doesn't really care about life, he just doesn't give a f*** of what people may think about his way of being. And that's one of the things I like of Frank besides so many others. I've known this guy for like what??... 6 years or so… & within these 6 years he stole my heart.…. He's just reached that point of my weakness…. .the point that makes me melt every time I talk to him or I just stay there watching him living his life… for me Frank is perfect… did I mentioned how many things I like about this guy??.... Well… let me start…. I like everything he does... the way he acts… the way he stares at me with those gorgeous hazel eyes… the way he says my nickname just make me feel butterflies inside… yeah… for me Frank is a living angel.. an angel that will help me overcome all my fears …the one that will be there even if I see no use of living.. I know that he'll be right there with me telling me how much he cares about me & how much I mean in life… but the truth is… Frankie just sees me as a friend… as his best friend during these years… I'd like to be more than a friend to him… even when he cries or when he's upset it just broke my heart that a beautiful angel like him will get hurt or will pass through this shitty world…. I want to hold him tight every time I see him upset… I want to tell him that he means too much to me... I sometimes want to kiss him just to make him feel better... but I know if I do those kinds of things he'd probably see me as if I was crazy or maybe he will just accept them & told me that he feels the same… I wish the second option was the truth but I know that he's not like me… oh how I wish he feels at least one bit of love for me… not the friends love… the love that you feel when you love someone… that weirdy feeling someone has when he sees the person of his dreams standing right in front of him… & that someone was Frank… but he mustn't know anything about this… cuz probably he'd freak out or something worse… I don't know how many things he will do if he finds out… no…he mustn't know anything…I think it's better to keep this in secret… I'm afraid of how will he react if I told him… it's better of this way...

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soo k.. here it was..
likey???
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