God.. I miss you Nelliegirl <3 x0x

Happy 17th Birthday, Sweetie. I f****** miss you. Those who knew you the best all know that you..d be beyond shitfaced all day today! Those were always the great times that we all spent together.. especially those few days we partied hardy at my house and then i got my ass chewed off by my mother but it was worth it! On the 15th, it was just weird because all the Wives & the Hubbie were at my house drinking and I just had a flashback to Pipeline and I remember how trashed we all were but it was so much f****** fun! I miss your smile, I miss how blunt you were, I miss how you were always so f****** cheery no matter what! I hate hearing "Ruins" By 86 List because it just makes me want to bawl my f****** eyes out. It makes me think of all those good times we've spent together at shows dancing. The last show I remember perfectly clear when we were at Pauahi [that last picture] and you were on my left and amber on my right and Black Square was playing and you looked at me and smiled that huge smile of yours that I will NEVER forget and started skankin with me and moving your arm/hand in a wave motion. I wish you were here so badly. Nothing is the same without you here. I honestly, can..t take a sip of alcohol or want to take a hit without thinking about you. You know everytime I drink, there..s always some for ya.. always.Another night that is crystal clear in my mind although we were all pretty f****** trashed was that night we all drink at Fort DeRussy all f***** night and then walked around screaming 86 list lyrics and black square on my ipod. Great s***. Those are the times that I miss.. just being f***** up outta my mind and being as obnoxious as i can be!