the forgotten 2

The forgotten 2


I went to Cape Town to get lost, to find a new hope and I guess a new love. I stayed in Cape Town for like a month or two. September 1, 2008, I was having cappuccino early in the morning… I was staring outside the shop then Someone came to me and asked
“can I sit with you?”
The forgotten: uhmm… yah…sure…
Someone: great
(became quiet for like 10 seconds)
Someone: so what’s your name?
The forgotten: uhmm… huh?
Someone: okay… I got it. We just met.
The forgotten: I’m sorry.
The girlfriend: is this the girl you’re dating?
Someone: we’re over right?
The girlfriend: but I still love you.
Someone: I don’t love you. Remember you cheated on me?
The girlfriend: how could you steal my boyfriend?
The forgotten: uhmm huh?
Someone: stop ruining mylife okay?
(then Someone hold The forgotten’s hand then they left)
The forgotten: what was that?
Someone: I’m sorry ‘bout that
The forgotten: was that really your girlfriend?
Someone: EX-girlfriend
The forgotten: why? what happened? Did she really cheated on you?
Someone: yah, she did… it’s really not like cheated on me. It’s like she’s my girlfriend but she love somebody else. I know it’s not a mistake to love somebody else so I let her go and I don’t know why she’s running after me.
The forgotten: maybe she loves you now.
Someone: I know she don’t. She’s just using me ‘coz the one she loves love somebody else.
The forgotten: that’s sad… but you know what, the next girl you’ll love will be so lucky.
Someone: why?
The forgotten: ‘coz you’re a very understanding guy.
Someone: thanks.
The forgotten: I’m just telling the truth.
Someone: so… I’ve said a lot of things ‘bout me. Now it’s your turn
The forgotten: what do you wanna hear?
Someone: anything. Do you live here?
The forgotten: uhmm no. I’m just here for a vacation. To get lost… I guess… 
Someone: why?
The forgotten: uhmm I can’t tell you and I don’t wanna talk ‘bout it. Hope you understand.
Someone: It’s okay. I do…
The forgotten: that’s sweet.
Someone: well, you are sweet too…
The forgotten: thanks… oh btw, do you live here?
Someone: why? Do you need a tour guide?
The forgotten: I think so. I wanna be alone actually but it’s like I’m getting lost.
Someone: but that’s your plan right? To be lost in this place?
The forgotten: uhmm yah … but--- do you want to be my tour guide or not?
Someone: okay, sure…
(they were in the car)
Someone: I’m just wondering… do you have a boyfriend?
The forgotten: why? Do you wanna court me?
Someone: uhmmm…(just smiling)
The forgotten: no, I don’t. I think you like me. 
Someone: really?
The forgotten: yah. Not lying.
Someone: I believe you.
The forgotten and Someone really have fun. They toured Cape Town. The famous tourist spots there. They took pictures of the places they’ve been. They ate their lunch together and have dinner together too. They got to know eachother on that day. The last place they went was like an neglected place. They were sitting on the grass.
Someone: can I take a picture of us together?
The forgotten: huh? Why?
Someone: I just wanted to have a souvenir. I never toured anyone like you.
The forgotten: you never did this to your girlfriend?
Someone: it’s embarrassing to say but it’s true. When I call her and tell her ‘bout this plan… she always say that she’s busy so it’s always cancelled.
The forgotten: that’s really sad.
Someone: yah, I know. Uhmm hey it’s late. I should take you home now.
The forgotten: can’t we stay longer?
Someone: we could… I thought you wanna go home for you are tired.
The forgotten: no it’s okay. I’m not that tired.
They were watching the stars in the sky.
Someone: what’s that? Is that a shooting star?
The forgotten: no… it’s like an airplane.
Someone: I never tried riding on a plane.
The forgotten: really?
Someone: yah.
The forgotten: why?
Someone: if i’ll ride on a plane. I want to sit beside the girl I love.
The forgotten: why?
Someone: I think that’s sweet.
The forgotten: but what if the girl you would love forever is not in this place? Maybe she lives at New York or maybe in New Jersey?
Someone: if we’re destined to be together. Then we will meet eachother.
The forgotten: you believe in destiny?
Someone: yah. Don’t you?
The forgotten: I don’t.
Someone: why? It’s like everybody believes that someone is destined for them and you don’t? That’s weird and very strange.
The forgotten: love is choice you make. You just can’t sit there and wait for the right person to come. You should look for that person.
Someone: how will you know if the search is over? How will you know if he/she is the right one for you?
The forgotten: if you love her and she loves you. I think the search over. You have to fight for your love but put in mind that you’re love will never remain forever. Nothing is constant in this world but the word “change”. Nothing lasts forever.
Someone: WOAH! You have to have lots of guts to believe on that stuff. You’re a really deep person.
The forgotten: thanks… that’s why sometimes people don’t get my thing ‘coz I’m too deep.
Someone: that’s okay. At least you stand up for what you believe in.
The forgotten: I do.
(minutes after, they went home. The forgotten stayed at a hotel)
(inside the car before she’ll go out)
The forgotten: I just wanted you to know that I have fun and enjoyed everything we did.
Someone: me too…
The forgotten: thanks a lot.
Someone: you’re welcome… this is the best night of mylife…
The forgotten: you really are sweet. You know how to make me smile. I’ll go now. (opened the door but Someone hold her hand)
Someone: wait.
The forgotten: what?
Someone: can I kiss you before you leave?
The forgotten: uhmm huh? Idk. I guess not. I never kissed anyone. I wanted my first kiss to be special. I’m sorry  I really am.
Someone: it’s okay. You don’t have to apologize.
[The forgotten felt like someone really got sad. She kissed him on his cheek but he turned his head (but it wasn’t on purpose. He didn’t knew she’ll do that) so they kissed eachother. She was surprise about the thing so she immediately went out of the car]
The next day, early in the morning… Someone brought flowers to The forgotten. He went to the front desk to ask but he forgot to ask her name. He waited at the lobby hoping he’ll see her but he didn’t even saw her shadow. He was upset about that thing. He thought she was the girl for him.

I went to London for the agency assigned me there. Almost 2 months of not seeing him, i thought she was over him but guess what? He was there with his girlfriend. I can’t dare to look at them and act like I don’t feel the pain of loving someone who don’t love you back. Sometimes I wish my wrist were bleeding to stop the pain I’m feeling. What will I do just for you to love me back? I’d sacrifice everything just for you my love. I hope you could love me like I’m the girl of your dreams. I’m standing infront of you, waiting for you to notice me but you never did. I’m the girl you never knew, the girl you never thought I’d be, the girl you never dare to see, the girl you never recognize, the girl you never gave a damn just call me The forgotten. Guess I’ll remain to be that girl ‘til the end of time.
One afternoon, almost all of our officemates went home. Your girlfriend arrived. You and your girlfriend were talking inside your office. First, you were laughing about things. Then suddenly both of you are started crying. I wanna be there for you. Someone you could come to. The next day, I decided to work over time so I could finish everything. It was late and you were still around. I looked at you and I saw you holding your bag coz you were about to go. I was surprise, you went to me and said
“hi”
“hello”
“working overtime huh?”
“yah, I need to finish this things”
“take a break sometimes”
“yah, I will… so, I didn’t saw your girl today?”
“she’s not my girl anymore”
“you broke up?”
“(just nod his head)”
“why?”
“things between us just can’t work out perfectly”
“that’s sad”
“yah but not that much”
The janitor arrived as you said the word “I love you”. I long to hear those words from you. I waited half mylife to hear that from you. And it’s sad I have to believe in you ‘coz I love you.
“I thought you don’t notice me? You don’t give me a damn everytime I passed by in front of you. You never talked to me”
“what?! I always notice everything ‘bout you.”
“you do? I can’t believe it.”
“yah, you love redorange. You don’t go out of the house without any redorange in your body. Right?”
“yah, you are right. Wait… Am I the reason why you and your girl broke up?”
“no, don’t blame yourself. My girlfriend is not happy on my company that’s why”
“promise?”
“yah.”
“everything you said before was real?”
“yah, I know we found something real but we didn’t have the right time for our right love we can’t fight for and now… everything is fine. We could be together. You do love me right?”
“I do”


So I guess I’m not The forgotten all along. All I ever wanted is for you to notice me but God gave something more and I’m thankful to have you in mylife. I hope our relationship could last eventhough I know It won’t.





poem for Someone to The forgotten:

if you only knew how I feel
the first time I saw you…
you make mylife brighter than sunshine,
you are my gem,
you clear this black poisoned blood,
you heal this fractured bones broken
caused by depression,
you make me smile when I’m sad,
you also make me laugh…
how could I fly with this broken wings?
I just wanna be with you.
I wanna cry infornt of you and tell you
“please stay with me”
I wanna stare at you and sleep beside you
the whole time I’m breathing
For if I close my eyes it’s you I only see and feel.
i really love you but it’s sad to know you love him.