sincerly your dead best friend

Quit yelling please,
I'm going deaf
Quit hurting me,
And leading my death
Yes it's true,
I took the pills,
I slit my wrists, does it show?
I drank the brandy
To make the blood flow
I watched it fall
That night I lost it all
I gained something too
More pain,
Especially shame.
I basically got high,
I basically got drunk,
I nearly bled to death
I would have died that night,
If only my hands didn't hurt so much,
I could have tied the rope.
So I set it down,
Thinking I would bleed to death,
The crimson red
Pouring to the floor
As I was dieing,
I thought I deserved more pain,
So in my last seconds,
I sliced into my leg
I must have been bad
Done something wrong,
For you to hate me
All along.
I was shaking so bad,
Until I remembered
I forgot about my friends.
I quickly sat down
And wrote them each notes,
Telling them I loved them.
And thank them for being there
Paper was covered in tears, and lots of blood
I hope they get it
My parents never understood
I signed it sincerly,
Your dead best friend
Don't be sad
You were with me to the end
I tried to put it in an envelope
But my vision was too blury,
I thought about my parents
And threw up with fury
If I'm just so worthless
And I'm just a pain
After my death
You'll be to blame
You never loved me,
You never cared
After you read this
You'll just tell my friends I was too scared
All the memories coming back,
Of all the screaming,
To a pointless end
Each memory calls for another pill
A few more slices
The knife goes deep this time
I drink more brandy
I honestly can't take living anymore.
Always wanting to know whats wrong
The truth is
I felt so unloved,
Alone.
Empty,
No one loves me.
No one cares
I'm laying on the floor
Waiting for my mistakes to kill me
I'm crying so hard
I can't be human
I can't be real
I want to die so bad,
Mental beating after mental beating.
Nobody even cared enough to notice
That I stoped eating
I can't keep anything down,
It all comes back up.
I'm such a waste of air
A waste of life,
My living is just a waste of death
I can't sleep
I took the pills
I drank the brandy
I slit my wrists,
It's a shame this is the end
Sincerly,
Your dead best friend.