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Part 1: Nothing

I wanna know why life hurts.
why people die. and why we always cry.
why its so hard to move on.
even when you know hes gone.
and why we want to give up. and youve had enough.
but they wont let you. the people or person that loves you.
catches you when you try to fall off the face of the earth.
and life peices itself togther again. and you feel whole again.
the feeling begins. all over again.
when love lays down and dies.
in front of your eyes.
and closes you out. without a doubt.
you become nothing.....amber
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Part 2: Everything

all tragedies begin.
the cold has come to stay.
im lying here again.
willing the pain to go away.
thunderstruck and empty.
and chilling to the bone.
you'll all learn to resent me.
for what i have become.
i only looked back for a second.
but that seemed to be enough.
ive tried not to regret it.
im still holding onto lost love.
im not always hopeless.
im not always wrong.
but ive always had forgiveness.
ive had it all along.
and although i feel like dreaming.
im staying awake.
and although i feel like screaming.
the tears overtake.
and while the world is spinning.
im standing still.
but so far the world is winning.
i fear it always will.
im learning to get over it.
the way people often do.
the peices soon began to fit.
i soon realized the truth.
and i cant begin to explain.
how it ended up this way.
but there was always pain.
in this f***** up love game.
im always standing in your darkness.
hiding from the spotlight.
and now i never can confess.
what we know is right.
i wish it would dissapear.
i wish it away.
i hold those memories near.
theyre all i have left anyways.
a priceless sentimental.
and encouraging sorrowful sigh.
lost all meaning when the lies fell.
and then i understood why.
it only took a heartbeat.
to create a heartbreak.
the fatcs converged and began to meet.
with all of time to take.
dont forget the objective.
in a series of plans.
just let me live, laugh, and love.
while your holding onto her hand.... amber
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My Beautiful Angel
September 26, 2009, 09:12:pm

My sweet beautiful angel.
Sent to me from above.
I am so grateful to have found you,
and I give you all my love.
You must have come from heaven,
because you have pretty little angel eyes.
When you gaze at me with them,
my heart begins to fly.
Your sweet angelic voice,
continuously rings in my ears.
With you by my side,
there is nothing I fear.
Whenever we are together,
You shine with a heavenly glow.
Your beautiful angel face,
raises me up from feeling low.
Yes, heaven is missing an angel,
because you are here with me.
You're my sweet, beautiful angel,
and I'll love you for eternity!
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my heart is like the sky
September 26, 2009, 07:32:pm

My heart is like the sky,
it has special feelings
that lives and never dies.
You said nothing was as good
as when you looked my in the eyes,
now you dont care that im even alive.
I loved you and needed you,
but you cheated with no shame.
The sky cried and so did I,
but you still didn't care
if I lived or died.
The sky starts to rumble,
and begins to shake,
I realized the connections
it had made.
Anger builds inside me,
like a cheetah about to attack,
I went to call you up,
and said leave and don't come back!
The sky is now calm
and begins to shine.
It had just reacted to the feelings of mine.
I looked up at the sky,
a bird was circling me,
that bird represents freedom,
as free as it can be.
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TEDDY BEAR

Teddy, I've been bad again,
My Mommy told me so;
I'm not quite sure what I did wrong.
But I thought that you might know.

When I woke up this morning,
I knew that she was mad;
Cause she was crying awful hard,
And yelling at my dad.

I tried my best to be real good,
And do just what she said;
I cleaned my room all by myself,
I even made my bed.

But I spilled milk on my good shirt,
When she yelled at me to hurry;
And I guess she didn't hear me,
When I told her I was sorry.

Cause she hit me awful hard, you see,
And called me funny names;
And told me I was really bad,
And I should be ashamed!

When I said,"I love you, Mommy,"
I guess she didn't understand;
Cause she yelled at me to shut my mouth.
Or I'd get smacked again.

So, I came up here to talk to you,
Please tell me what to do;
Cause I really love my Mommy,
And I know she loves me, too.

And I don't think my Mommy means,
To hit me quite so hard;
I guess sometimes, grown-ups forget.
How big they really are!

So Teddy, I wish you were real,
And you weren't just a bear;
Then you could help me find a way.
To tell Mommies everywhere.

To please try hard to understand.
How sad it makes us feel;
Cause the outside pain soon goes away,
But the inside never heals!

And if we could make them listen,
Maybe then they'd understand;
So other children just like me,
Wouldn't have to hurt again.
But for now, I guess I'll hold you tight,
And pretend the pain's not there;
I know you 'd never hurt me,
I love you......So Goodnight,
Teddy Bear!
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